Sunday, January 12, 2014

Mistress Barbara Moving Forward With My Change

As previously disclosed the entire Christmas period was a big change for me. My easy willingness to comply with every directive from Mistress Barbara did seem natural and consistent with our relationship. However, my willingness to obey Mistress Kate without question also seemed natural but every unexpected. Everything with Lady Mary was to honor and obey Mistress Barbara, but my rather easy acceptance of everything truly surprised me. Such consistent and quick acceptance was about as opposite my work behavior as i could get. Mistress Barbara did recognize my confusion. She provided support, encouragement, and a fair amount of humor around my differing behaviors.

Her post holiday clothes buying spree was very unusual, but brought Her great joy. She was very supportive as i tried on each new item. Since it was cold during these months, the leotards, slacks, and long skirts were warm. i did find myself beginning to truly enjoy dressing as directed and encouraged. i was certainly looking forward to entering the house and finding the position of our signal dish. i found myself looking forward to the surprise of what clothes, or lack of clothes, i would be wearing each night. It is amazing the impact of taking trash out to the street wearing only a scrub suit top and shoes/slipper one night, adding stockings or panty hose on another night, and slacks or long skirt on yet another night. Mistress Barbara’s training process included task requests and directions, encouragement, rewards, education, reinforcements, punishment (as necessary), lots of communication, and plenty of love and respect.

In addition to me taking the trash out to the street dressed as directed, Mistress Barbara and i also started walking around the village late at night. Now there were not a lot of street lights in the village, and most windows had roll-down shutters that prevented residents from seeing out. Thus, walking was relatively low risk. i began to enjoy our walks when i was wearing stockings/pantyhose and matching jeans and/or slacks. i began to like the feel and interaction of my jeans and slacks against my garters, stocking, panties, or pantyhose. The mix of cold weather, feminine clothes, my pretty Mistress Barbara on my arm, and the risk of discovery all fused together. i really enjoyed the feel of my new slacks, and long skirts. However, our nights when i was wearing a short skirt, or just my scrub top and a jacket, my fear and nervousness was significantly higher. Looking back, we were very lucky that we were not caught. By the end of February i was hooked on my feminine clothes. i would be lying if i did not admit that on the coldest nights when Mistress required i wear the least amount of clothing, we started our walk after my butt was spanked into agreement. i understand the spanking were part of my training, but a red butt did add to my momentary humiliation. In the end, i was not looking forward to the warming weather in March. i certainly did not want April to come when i would only be able to wear my scrub top or bra and panties when not at work.

Panties did become the major symbol of my feminine love and commitment to Mistress Barbara. Mistress Barbara and i enjoyed sharing with each other all of my other feminine things in the confines of our home. Given our military connection, i could not wear skirts or blouses, or leotards, or slacks in public. With long pants, or our matching jeans and sweaters, and some matching tunic tops, i could wear some combination of bra, garter, stocking, panties, or pantyhose. As spring and summer approached i had to settle for wearing panties under my shorts when out and not at work.

It took only a few months for Mistress Barbara and i to become more comfortable with our evolving relationship. my training was moving to the point where i could often select the correct combination of underwear to match Mistress Barbara’s underwear and the particular non-work event or routine. my growing enjoyment of feminine clothing extended to nightgowns and baby dolls. Without a lot deep thought, i was becoming a cross dresser, and Mistress Barbara and i we both enjoying the change.

1972 was a period focused on my training. We did not have the opportunity to share of evolving lifestyle with anyone. Weekends, and during our day trips, or holiday trips i wore as many feminine cloths as Mistress Barbara felt i could. Upon reflection, we did not have access to television. At home we had ourselves. We have the opportunity to build our relationship without distractions. Other than the magazines available to us through the Post Exchange (PX) system we did not have books, or blogs, or clubs, or social networks for interactions. We were dependent upon Mistress Barbara and Her ability to guide us. The foundation She set has lasted over forty years. Yes, no surprise, She is a Superior Woman.

At the end of 1972 we returned to the United States. Our lives saw many changes in our own country.   

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Home from ChristmasM

Mistress Barbara was finally released from the hospital. We started our 1,100 mile drive home mid-afternoon. It was good to be heading south out of the snow and cold. Mistress Barbara had enough medicine  in Her to make the trip acceptable. Not great, not easy, but acceptable. We only had five hours of driving the first day. We did eleven hours the second day and arrived home at mid-night. It was a long tough day on Mistress Barbara. However, it was important we get home. With a day of rest at home it is clear Mistress Barbara has several months of recovery ahead of Her.

There were very few highlight of this years Christmas. my birthday was New Year's eve. We did not get to celebrate. However, Mistress Barbara directed me to take a break from the hospital and walk the mall. As you may recall, Mistress Barbara started dressing me in medical scrub tops and then added stockings, garters, and pantyhose. The scrub top is very much like a tunic top. i eventually wore tunic tops to parties. my walk about the mall was a nice break from the hospital. i have to admit i very much enjoyed watching the women of all ages wearing tunic tops over various legging, tights, tight jeans, and boots. If you do not have this combination of dress, please try it. Regardless of your size or shape, dark legging, a colorful tunic, and boots will always look good. With good make-up, and a nice wig you could go almost anywhere as a very nice sissy. If you are concerned, go to an accepting club or party to build your confidence as a sissy or crossdresser.

Mistress Barbara also told me to buy myself an aluminum butt plug. Considering how cold it was, it was not surprising it was very very cold when i inserted into my sissy pussy. i do have to admit, i did enjoy the present. It slid in quickly. It was (is) comfortable. It made it clear, dispite Mistress Barbara's very poor health, She still wanted me to have some joy and happiness. i sure do love Her. i now recommend you add this toy to your collection.

Mistress Barbara has directed me to get back to tell everyone our story of a successful FLM, submissive training, sissy development, sharing with family and friends, and the benefits we found through our lifestyle choice. Therefore, i will get back on track.

We wish everyone a safe, healthy, and life expanding 2014. Hugs to everyone....