Monday, August 25, 2014

Christmas Day followed by Christmas (1972)

i was quite surprised to be carrying our bags into the house in my skirt, heels, and sweater. With sissy dad, we only had to make one trip, but I was sure we would caught by some neighbor. Just as i had been taught, sissy dad removed his skirt and sweater. i also removed mine. we carried the bags up stairs to the guest room and returned to the kitchen. Mistress Kate and Lady Mary were in the kitchen with Mistress Barbara and Mistress Mom. Lady Mary was dressed to match sissy dad and i, except her hands were tied behind her back and she had a dog collar around her neck and dog leash attached to the collar. My mind went for a big spin. Not saying a thing, i am wondering what happened since she and Mistress Kate left Germany.

Mistress Mom had fixed some tea and Christmas cookies. Mistress Mom stated that Mistress Barbara and i would take a nap. Later we would have a small meal, catch up on things, and get to bed early. We would have our real Christmas tomorrow on the 26th. In the morning, we would have breakfast and then open our stockings. Mistress Barbara and i would simply enjoy breakfast and not have to help with the breakfast clean-up. However, everyone would help prepare the turkey and Christmas meal. The Ladies and would prepare most everything and Lady Mary and the sissies would fetch and clean as directed. Mistress Mom noted there would be plenty of wooden spoons around any Mistress felt someone needed correction or motivation. After more welcome home hugs and a couple of loving swats to my pantied butt, Mistress Barbara and i went up-stairs for a nap. Until we lay down on the bed, we did not realize how exhausted we were. A quick welcome home hug and kiss of our own, then we both went right to sleep.

We slept until about 8 PM. Mistress Barbara had packed a night gown for me. i shaved, put on a bra, night gown, garter, stockings, and my new heels. Mistress Barbara always understood me and was always very supportive. Mistress realized how nervous and excited i was. Yes, Mistress Mom, Mistress Kate, and Lady Mary had seen me dressed and undressed, but i was still uncertain. Add to that, now sissy dad was also present and both knew and could see GI Joe was just a sissy. Mistress Barbara supported me with words, hugs, kisses, and steady support. In fact, to my surprise, Her support was stronger than i thought. By the time we entered the living room, sissy dad and Lady Mary we kneeling on the floor. Mistress Mom and Mistress Kate were seated. They immediately started clapping as Mistress Barbara pushed my very small but hard sissy cock and me into the room first. With Her arms around me, She managed to twist my body left and right to give everyone a profile view of my tented night gown. She directed me to kneel beside Her chair. A round of welcome home, thanks, and everyone providing supportive words for the two sissies quickly followed the clapping.   

Mistress Kate and Lady Mary had prepared a spaghetti dinner for everyone. Lady Mary served a round of drinks for everyone. She returned to the kitchen to get everything on the table. i did offer to help, but was told to kneel and enjoy my drink for this evening. When everything was ready, Mistress Kate invited everyone to dinner. Lady Mary was directed to lead sissy dad and sissy kay to the table. i am always amazed and shocked by things that just seem to happen. Lady Mary helped sissy dad up, reach under his night gown and took hold of his cock. She then did the same thing to me. Mistress Mom and Mistress Barbara had already taken their seats at the table. Mistress Kate then took hold of Lady Mary’s leash, and lead we subs to the table. Sissy dad and i were release by our chairs and Mistress Kate lead Lady Mary to her chair.  It is almost needless to say, sissy dad and i were hard when we sat down.

The meal looked wonderful and clearly everyone was hungry. Mistress Mom quickly said; “before we eat, I want to toast My special daughter Barbara for bring such an unexpected change to our family, and to lovely Kate for Her support in help Me change My life at home. I do not know where or how dear Barbara led us to become Mistresses, but for sissy dad and Me, it added a new and exciting life for us. With the support of lovely Mistress Kate and Her dear submissive Lady Mary, we have radically changed old dad here into a wonderful, cooperative sissy toy for our mutual enjoyment. Of course I don’t think any of this would have developed if it were not for my visit with Mistress Barbara and sissy kay in Germany. While nudity was never a big deal around here, My authorized access to sissy kay was exciting, amazing, and kindled a side of Me I did not know existed. So here is a toast to everyone at the table, thank you for being yourselves, thank you for your Dominant and submissive roles, thank you for expanding our family concept of love and sharing. To Lady Mary, sissy dad, and sissy kay, I think we are all going learn a lot, share a lot of new adventures, with a combination of deep love and may be some amount of pain. So thank you for being here for Christmas, and the next couple of weeks. Thank you all and cheers!”

If you are new to the FLM/FLR lifestyle, i hope you get the same chance to be both proud of your Mistress and scared to death about all the things implied in such a wonderful toast.

Following Mistress Mom’s toast, our dinner went rather normally. The conversation centered on our sudden transfer from Germany to Maryland. Mistress Barbara and i have stories about arranging the move, the packers speed, moving the car to the port, moving into temporary quarters, and clearing the post. i had to discuss how it felt to travel in my sissy underwear. Did i think anyone saw my stockings? Mistress Kate wanted to know how it felt putting on my skirt and heels with sissy dad in the parking lot. Of course, Mistress Barbara noting that both sissy dad and i were getting hard from the conversation. As much as possible, my input consisted of rather short answers. It is so difficult for a sissy to hide her humiliation and true feelings.

sissy dad and i did clear the table before desert. Mistress Kate and Lady Mary served ice cream, pie, and hot tea. sissy dad and i cleared the table again. we left the tea cups and added some cookies to the table so the conversation could continue. Ordered to load the dishwasher and clean up the rest of the dishes, Lady Mary work quickly and quietly. Mistress Barbara directed sissy dad and i to take off our nightgowns and listen to the remainder of the conversation. We could serve tea when needed and do anything else we were told. However, we no longer need to contribute to the conversation. Plans were make for opening the presents tomorrow, cooking dinner, post Christmas training requirements, and a general discussion of picking up the car at the port, and the need to go to Maryland to find an apartment.

Honestly, it did not take very long to realize sissy dad and i would be naked or nearly naked a lot. The only question was would it be with just these family members, or anyone. Only time would tell.

In the early stages of building a new lifestyle, almost everything everyone does or does not do, reacts to or does not react to, says or does not say is scary, exciting, embarrassing, humiliating and fun moments for each person at the same time. The first time Mistress Mom walked in on me naked was embarrassing and humiliating for me, but fun for Mistress Mom. By the end of Her visit, our interactions were not quite as embarrassing or humiliating (not quite as, but still…). Mistress Mom however was very comfortable and happy about our new relationship and Her authority and control over me. Likewise, the first time sissy dad became subservient to his youngest Daughter, Mistress Kate and Lady Mary, had to be embarrassing and humiliating to him. Clearly it was fun for Mistress Kate, and slightly less exciting for Lady Mary. Now, here was sissy dad humble and obedient, and dealing with his new reality as sissy to his oldest Daughter with Her sissy husband. In addition, a sissy son-in-law he knew his Mistress/Wife had played with and had control over. This contrast of emotions was not only present in each moment; clearly, it was building during this entire after dinner conversation. Of course, Mistress Barbara is showing Her support of me by kissing me each time She got up for the table, stroking me, quietly asking Lady Mary if she want to suck me, but never giving permission, simply added to my humiliation and the happiness of everyone else. Honestly, i was close to crying, but somehow i knew better. Around 12:30 AM Mistress Barbara had me put my nightgown back on, told be to kiss Mistress Mom, Mistress Kate, and Lady Mary good night. Each of the Ladies gave me a big, deep kiss, and squeezed my little (although hard) sissy cock, and said good night sissy kay. Mistress Barbara did the same to Her sissy dad. Then She reached under by nightgown and pulled me off to bed. Mistress Barbara held me tight. i did cry. She rode me and i quickly exploded. i then cleaned Her out, which led to a couple of great orgasms for Her. We fell asleep. We did not even think about what Santa might have brought. 

As you look back on these seminal events in your life, the reality is still hard to understand, yet such things become normal, loving, trusting, and comfortable after all these years. While we have learned we were not and are alone, at the time we were sure we were the only crazy people in the world. Now, we can advise others to explore and enjoy. Hold love, respect, communication, and trust as the foundation for your lifestyle. When you discover a limit, honor that limit. Even if you test that limit in the future do so with care and recognition that a persons’ limit may or may not expand. It not, show respect, not anger, and back down a little. On the edge, you both have fun, over the edge; only one of you has any fun.


Christmas Day follows for us. How could Christmas change so much?

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Special Note:

Mistress Barbara has been in charge of me for 43 years. We believe the key has less to do with the day to day dress, tasks, punishments, and rewards, but more to do with the elements in respect, love, liking each other, and communications. A FLR/FLM, or Dom/sub relationship does not have to be filled with mean, harsh, disrespectful treatment. Life changes all the time; meeting new friends in the life and unaware of the life, family events of all kinds, children, job changes and home relocations, family and friend deaths, good health and illness, vacations and over-work, all of which require some adjustment in how you manage your relationship. The conditions of life can change in an instant. Throughout all the changes your FLR/FLM can continue, but adjusts as necessary. With good communications, including humor, each of you can remain true and supportive of each other. Remember, as a sub cares for his/her Mistress/Dom, the Mistress/Dom also care for their subs. Throughout the years, you must also work to like each other, to want to be with each other, to care enough to give your very best to each other. It is likely your overt actions will change while you are raising children. subs may still wash; cook and clean wearing panties, but the apron may not be as frilly as it was without children (Mistress’s choice). When the kids leave the house, or are old enough to be encouraged or trained into the lifestyle, a new maid uniform might appear. If your lifestyle remains private while the children are home, the excitement on reinstatement day will be as much fun as it was 20 or more years ago. In long-term relationships health issues will present themselves. If sub has a heart attack at age 67, Mistress/Dom will have to care for sub. After years of respect, love, and good communications this should be within the normal flow of the relationship. In our case, Mistress Barbara has been sick for many years now. With visitors at home or when Mistress is in hospital, with my cage, and me in panties Mistress Barbara always tells people, "k finds a way to make Me smile everyday". We like being with each. We love each other. The day to day tasks have change, but Mistress Barbara is still in charge. i still make sure Her needs are met, but things are different. 

Our advise - work at keeping your relationship healthy - like each other, love each other, respect each other, and over time adjust everything as necessary. Do not worry, confront issues and make changes to stay fresh and in love.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Returning to the States (1972)

Our account of Mistress Barbars training program has been interupted. We want to get back to our development in hopes that it might help others. Mistress Barbara's health events continue and have contributed to our delays. However, Her training has prepared me to care for Her, and She continues to have a very positive attitude. We thank everyone for your very kind words and support. Thank you very much. 

Returning to the States

Just after Thanksgiving 1972 we received orders to return to the States. Based on some work our unit did, I received orders to return to Maryland. We had about three weeks to move. It is amazing how efficiently the Army can move a family.

As it turned out, we would be travelling in time to arrive home on Christmas Day. Mistress Mom would pick us up at the airport. We shipped our rapidly purchased Christmas presents and mailed the home. Fortunately, Mistress Mom held our present at home and did not send them to Germany. Our friends drove us to the airport in Frankfurt.

Since we would be travelling at the busiest time of the year, Mistress Barbara decided we should wear matching stockings, garters, and panties for the trip home. Although I would be travelling in uniform, Mistress Barbara felt it would be a low risk and a lot of fun. So offer we went with me wearing my femme underwear looking like a big soldier. We had not trouble on the flight. My uniform was a big help when we arrived in Philadelphia and need to get a flight to Boston.

We arrived early afternoon. Mistress Mom and sissy dad met us at the airport. We received a very warm welcome at the airport with big hugs and kisses. Being home for Christmas with family was going to be great. We gathered our bags and went to car in the parking lot. When all the bags were in the trunk, Mistress Barbara said; “sissy dad, are you wearing your stocking and panties like ms k?” Wow, I am tired from travelling, and both dad and i are turning red (not from the cold air), and for the first time my position was made know to another male. dad quickly replied; “yes Mistress”. Mistress Mom produced a bag for each of us and said; “Ok gurls, strip out of those stupid clothes and put on these clothes”. She handed each of us a bag. As trained, we each took off our male clothes and put on our new clothes. For me there was a bra, sweater, skirt, and a new pair of low heels, in my size! I had never worn heels of any kind. My sweater matched sissy dad’s, and her skirt and shoes matched mine. I now understood why I was wearing stocking and panties on the flight. Of course in 1972 there were no camera in the parking lot, and at Christmas, no was paying any attention to us. We sat in the back set. Mistress Mom drove. In less than an hour we would be home. sissy dad and i did not look at each other, nor did we speak other than to answer Mistress Mom and Mistress Barbara’s questions. Mistress Mom wanted to know about the flight home and how well i was enjoying wearing my panties and other famine clothes. Mistress Barbara asked sissy dad how he was enjoying his new life and serving all the Superior Women in his new life. When we were close to home Mistress Barbara looked at me and said, “we are not in the Army for the next month, so ms k, you will learn as much as you can from sissy dad. you will do everything We Women tell you to do, you will dress as directed, and if you do not know how to do something, you will ask sissy dad how she does it. While we are home, you are going to learn all kinds of wonderful sissy things. Do you understand? i quickly replied yes Mistress; thank you for this opportunity.


Christmas 1972 was another big step forward for sissy maid k. We have wonderful memories of our first Christmas at home.    

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Mistress Barbara Moving Forward With My Change

As previously disclosed the entire Christmas period was a big change for me. My easy willingness to comply with every directive from Mistress Barbara did seem natural and consistent with our relationship. However, my willingness to obey Mistress Kate without question also seemed natural but every unexpected. Everything with Lady Mary was to honor and obey Mistress Barbara, but my rather easy acceptance of everything truly surprised me. Such consistent and quick acceptance was about as opposite my work behavior as i could get. Mistress Barbara did recognize my confusion. She provided support, encouragement, and a fair amount of humor around my differing behaviors.

Her post holiday clothes buying spree was very unusual, but brought Her great joy. She was very supportive as i tried on each new item. Since it was cold during these months, the leotards, slacks, and long skirts were warm. i did find myself beginning to truly enjoy dressing as directed and encouraged. i was certainly looking forward to entering the house and finding the position of our signal dish. i found myself looking forward to the surprise of what clothes, or lack of clothes, i would be wearing each night. It is amazing the impact of taking trash out to the street wearing only a scrub suit top and shoes/slipper one night, adding stockings or panty hose on another night, and slacks or long skirt on yet another night. Mistress Barbara’s training process included task requests and directions, encouragement, rewards, education, reinforcements, punishment (as necessary), lots of communication, and plenty of love and respect.

In addition to me taking the trash out to the street dressed as directed, Mistress Barbara and i also started walking around the village late at night. Now there were not a lot of street lights in the village, and most windows had roll-down shutters that prevented residents from seeing out. Thus, walking was relatively low risk. i began to enjoy our walks when i was wearing stockings/pantyhose and matching jeans and/or slacks. i began to like the feel and interaction of my jeans and slacks against my garters, stocking, panties, or pantyhose. The mix of cold weather, feminine clothes, my pretty Mistress Barbara on my arm, and the risk of discovery all fused together. i really enjoyed the feel of my new slacks, and long skirts. However, our nights when i was wearing a short skirt, or just my scrub top and a jacket, my fear and nervousness was significantly higher. Looking back, we were very lucky that we were not caught. By the end of February i was hooked on my feminine clothes. i would be lying if i did not admit that on the coldest nights when Mistress required i wear the least amount of clothing, we started our walk after my butt was spanked into agreement. i understand the spanking were part of my training, but a red butt did add to my momentary humiliation. In the end, i was not looking forward to the warming weather in March. i certainly did not want April to come when i would only be able to wear my scrub top or bra and panties when not at work.

Panties did become the major symbol of my feminine love and commitment to Mistress Barbara. Mistress Barbara and i enjoyed sharing with each other all of my other feminine things in the confines of our home. Given our military connection, i could not wear skirts or blouses, or leotards, or slacks in public. With long pants, or our matching jeans and sweaters, and some matching tunic tops, i could wear some combination of bra, garter, stocking, panties, or pantyhose. As spring and summer approached i had to settle for wearing panties under my shorts when out and not at work.

It took only a few months for Mistress Barbara and i to become more comfortable with our evolving relationship. my training was moving to the point where i could often select the correct combination of underwear to match Mistress Barbara’s underwear and the particular non-work event or routine. my growing enjoyment of feminine clothing extended to nightgowns and baby dolls. Without a lot deep thought, i was becoming a cross dresser, and Mistress Barbara and i we both enjoying the change.

1972 was a period focused on my training. We did not have the opportunity to share of evolving lifestyle with anyone. Weekends, and during our day trips, or holiday trips i wore as many feminine cloths as Mistress Barbara felt i could. Upon reflection, we did not have access to television. At home we had ourselves. We have the opportunity to build our relationship without distractions. Other than the magazines available to us through the Post Exchange (PX) system we did not have books, or blogs, or clubs, or social networks for interactions. We were dependent upon Mistress Barbara and Her ability to guide us. The foundation She set has lasted over forty years. Yes, no surprise, She is a Superior Woman.


At the end of 1972 we returned to the United States. Our lives saw many changes in our own country.   

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Home from ChristmasM

Mistress Barbara was finally released from the hospital. We started our 1,100 mile drive home mid-afternoon. It was good to be heading south out of the snow and cold. Mistress Barbara had enough medicine  in Her to make the trip acceptable. Not great, not easy, but acceptable. We only had five hours of driving the first day. We did eleven hours the second day and arrived home at mid-night. It was a long tough day on Mistress Barbara. However, it was important we get home. With a day of rest at home it is clear Mistress Barbara has several months of recovery ahead of Her.

There were very few highlight of this years Christmas. my birthday was New Year's eve. We did not get to celebrate. However, Mistress Barbara directed me to take a break from the hospital and walk the mall. As you may recall, Mistress Barbara started dressing me in medical scrub tops and then added stockings, garters, and pantyhose. The scrub top is very much like a tunic top. i eventually wore tunic tops to parties. my walk about the mall was a nice break from the hospital. i have to admit i very much enjoyed watching the women of all ages wearing tunic tops over various legging, tights, tight jeans, and boots. If you do not have this combination of dress, please try it. Regardless of your size or shape, dark legging, a colorful tunic, and boots will always look good. With good make-up, and a nice wig you could go almost anywhere as a very nice sissy. If you are concerned, go to an accepting club or party to build your confidence as a sissy or crossdresser.

Mistress Barbara also told me to buy myself an aluminum butt plug. Considering how cold it was, it was not surprising it was very very cold when i inserted into my sissy pussy. i do have to admit, i did enjoy the present. It slid in quickly. It was (is) comfortable. It made it clear, dispite Mistress Barbara's very poor health, She still wanted me to have some joy and happiness. i sure do love Her. i now recommend you add this toy to your collection.

Mistress Barbara has directed me to get back to tell everyone our story of a successful FLM, submissive training, sissy development, sharing with family and friends, and the benefits we found through our lifestyle choice. Therefore, i will get back on track.

We wish everyone a safe, healthy, and life expanding 2014. Hugs to everyone....

Monday, December 30, 2013

Hard Christmas 2013

We hope everyone had a great Christimas and will have a safe New Year.

Mistress Barbara in hospital was a big disruption to our family Christmas. She has been in the Intensive Care Unit for two days now. However, things are looking up, and we now feel we will get through this with positive results. Mistress Barbara will not be at full speed, but i will be able to bring Her home to care for Her.

Two other extended family relatives have been put in the hospital over the holiday period. Thus, our normal Christmas family activities have been reduced to hospital visits, meals out, and home for sleep. Next year will be better. We may use a January holiday as the day all our Superior Women use all our family sissy maids for respectice special services for which each of us has been trained. i trust Mistress Barbara will call everyone to Her home in Florida rather than in this very very cold and snowy Chicago.

On a lighter and perhaps an old sissy's observation. my two Mistress Daughers sent me out of the hospital on an errand to the Whitfield Mall. i think They wanted to give me a stress break. Mistress Barbara and i are no longer "mall people". So it has been a while since i was in a "mall". Well, the new skinny fashions that were in the stores and on all the pretty Women, honestly, had me crazy. i was wishing i was young again. i no longer have the body to wear the wonderful clothes i saw all around me. For you younger sissies, i hope your Mistress's dress you in today's fashions - skinny jeans, leggings, shorts and pantyhose, and a great mix of boots. i had to hug and thank my thoughtful Mistress Daughters for sending Their old sissy maid to a wonderful entertainment center. we old sissy maids can still dream and remember our better days....

We want everyone to have a safe, happy, and exciting New Year with your Mistress or Master. Please provide your best service. Shave close and carefully. Where your stockings, garters, panties, skirts, dresses, bras, chastity cages, and collars with pride. Accept your public or private punishment knowing the respect and love it represents. Wear your cages and plugs for as long as your are directed. Be submissive to all Women you encounter. Be ready and happy to suck the night away if that is what you are told to do. At mid-night on New Year's eve, remember to thank your Mistress for being the great leader of your FLR or FLM. Clean up when and where your are told. As appropriate, prepare a New Year's breakfast or brunch for your Mistress and Her house guest/lover as necessary.

Thank you and hugs to all,

sissy maid k for Mistress Barbara

Friday, December 27, 2013

A Late Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

We are very sorry for so few posts. As noted earlier, this has been a bad health year for Mistress Barbara. After a mid-year 30 day stay in the hospital, Her health improved a little bit. At the beginning of December we had another 3 week stay in the hospital, for the same problem. Christmas night we admitted Her to hospital again, for the same problem.

All my years of sissy maid training are certainly paying off. While i do not have a Nurses uniform, my standard scrub top, cage, stockings, pantyhose, and heels along with my serving and caring skills have been keeping Her as happy as can be expected. Taking care of the medical problem is not easy. Keeping Her spirits up, at our respective ages, is a challenge. However, we remain optimistic. i remain committed to serving my Mistress, lover, and very dear friend.

i was hoping to use my vacation time to catch-up with posts about our early development years. i do not think i will get our updates posted until Mistress Barbara's health improves. However, i have promised Mistress that i will get our experiences posted. Please be patient with us.

We want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. We hope Mistress Santa brought everyone a great gift that will help them elect to start a FLR or FLM, continue an existing FLR or FLM, and encourage friends, relatives, and age appropriate children to seriously consider the lifestyle choice. We hope the sissies and sissy maids provide proper service and attention to their Mistresses/Masters. We hope your Mistresses/Master will continue to train and support you next year. We pray your mutual love, respect, and communication grow in the new year.

New Year's Eve is a great time to renew your commitment, privately or publicly with support friends to your Mistress/Master. Be safe, have fun, and thank your Mistresses/Master for their leadership and guidence.

With warm hugs, we thank you for your attention to our little blog.

Hugs,

Mistress Barbara, and
sissy maid k